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no one truly sees the damage bullies have on people like me. here are words people call me on a daily bases some of thouse people even being my own family…bitch,whoer,slut,dumb ass cunt, good for nothing hooker, usless, retared, fucker, unloved,unwanted, unnessisary… thouse are some of the things that are said to me and it hurts. im makeing a stand and venting befor i do somthing i will regret… “sitcks and stonds may brake my bones but words are the gun that shoots me” i have already tried killing myself more than once so obviosly there is a reson im here. but i dont think im here to be pushed into such a deep dark hole of depression…i cant get out. i force myself to were a mask on a day to day baces and its crumbleing with each passing day i cry lonly and hurt. i cut so i have a lil pice of control of how much pain im in. i drink to numb the pain others inflickt on me and i screem till im to tired to give a shit anmore.no onhould be forced to live like this. i may be breathing but im dead in side and inside i wish i wasnt breathing. life is to short for most people but this makes my life drag on far to long for me to want to live it. i ave many good friends but they cannot undo the damage that has already been done and more damage is still being done every day i wonder how they will feel when im fed up with it and no one will know wat will happen to me o one will know how hurt i was. i am not the happy little girl you all usualy see im hurt and broken and i wish i wasnt here to pput up with everyones shit. they push me to the point were i hate life…ask yourself if you value your life? then ask do you value the life of another human being? these people i know dont…